Thursday, November 29, 2007
Thursday, October 25, 2007
Thursday, July 19, 2007
In a moment
I get that overwhelming desire to
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destroy
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I hate everything
and I have myself
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.In a moment
I find no place for me in this world
This world
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so cruel
so painful
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A world that
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rejects me
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I find no place for me there
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Yeah
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No place there
nor anywhere else
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for anywhere else
would definitely be on this world!!
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I am fed up
I hate everything at the moment
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I wanna disappear
There is.. there is security..in anything
I wanna disappear for one more reason
I am causing everyone trouble
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and because I really
See no point in me
The problem
Tuesday, July 17, 2007
A moment of weakness
Tuesday, July 3, 2007
Ain't no repentance
Dear Lord,
Forgive me
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For not knowing why I am here
For being scattered between the paths
For not using the life You gifted me with properly
and as Thou intended it to be
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Dear Lord,
I seek Your forgiveness
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For the mistakes I never give up
For breaking my promises to You
For my weaknesses
and arrogance
and ungratefulness to Your countless bounties upon me
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Dear Lord
Forgive me
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For being tired of life
For wanting what I don't have
For not valuing what I have
For not thinking of how Great You are
when I am faced with great difficulties and problems
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.
But Lord
This is ain't repentance
For repentance is about regret and change
I do regret
and I do admit
Still..
I am too weak to change
I am only..
Seeking Your forgiveness
You are All-forgiving, All- merciful
Scattered..
When and how
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QUESTIONS
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Wanting
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QUESTIONING
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Going around in endless circles
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Imagining
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Escaping
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Tired
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Lonely
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Scattered
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etc
etc
etc
Sunday, July 1, 2007
Thursday, June 28, 2007
Sad but true
Wednesday, June 27, 2007
Sunday, June 24, 2007
Exclusively in ....my dreams (3)
And the knight came on the back of a horse running
and the enemies were scared to death by piercing look in his eyes
and he came closer
One real bad guy gathered his guts and got on the back of his horse to fight the knight
and they got into fight with swords
and the knight won over the bad guy
then he gave that roar for victory
of which the rest of the bad guys ran
and the knight got off his horse
and went to the chained princess
and broke her chains
and carried her to the back of the horse
and then got in front of her
and said
"Hold on tight to me"
and she did
then he rode into the beautiful forest
and they went on
for soooo long
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Happily Ever After
Exclusively in ....my dreams (2)
and it all of sudden turned into
a charming prince
He looked at the princess with eyes wide open and said
"My princess, how beautiful art thee. Thou art the most beautiful creature I have even seen. Would you agree to make me the happiest man in the world and marry me?"
and the princess didn't answer
Only did her cheeks blush
and she nodded gracefully
They got married and
live together
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Happily Ever After
It sometimes hit me
And Frankl says...
So true on religiousness
Why?
And so I say
Commitment
Update!
List of "promises and goals" I'd like to make and keep, to self and to others:
To Self:
1. To learn to drive
2. To master German (then French, then Spanish!)
3. To do "something" about my old dreams of studying linguistics
4. To take care of my looks and health
5. To live within my budget
6. To study Quran & the lives of the prophets (Peace & Blessings of God be upon them)
7. To volunteer
8. To make plans for all of the above (and couple of items below)!!!! :D
To family:
1. To be more caring, cooperative and involved
2. To live within my OWN budget!!!
Note: The list is expandable!!Dear Lord
If only YOU could!!
If I can reach the stars,
Pull one down for you,
Shine it on my heart
So you could see the truth:
That this love I have inside
Is everything it seems.
But for now I find
It's only in my dreams.
And I can change the world,
I will be the sunlight in your universe.
You would think my love was really something good,
Baby if I could change the world.
And if I could be king,
Even for a day,
I'd take you as my queen;
I'd have it no other way.
And our love would rule
This kingdom we had made.
Till then I'd be a fool,
Wishing for the day...
That I can change the world,
I would be the sunlight in your universe.
You would think my love was really something good,
Baby if I could change the world.
Baby if I could change the world.
I could change the world,
I would be the sunlight in your universe.
You would think my love was really something good,
Baby if I could change the world.
Baby if I could change the world.
Baby if I could change the world.
And a little bit of Brian
There was only you and me
We were young and wild and free
Now nothin' can take you away from me
We bin down that road before
But that's over now
You keep me comin' back for more
Baby you're all that I want
When you're lyin' here in my arms
I'm findin' it hard to believe
We're in heaven
And love is all that I need
And I found it there in your heart
It isn't too hard to see
We're in heaven
Oh - once in your life you find someone
Who will turn your world around
Bring you up when you're feelin' down
Ya - nothin' could change what you mean to me
Oh there's lots that I could say
But just hold me now
Cause our love will light the way
N' baby you're all that I want
When you're lyin' here in my arms
I'm findin' it hard to believe
We're in heaven
And love is all that I need
And I found it there in your heart
It isn't too hard to see
We're in heaven
I've bin waitin' for so long
For something to arrive
For love to come along
Now our dreams are comin' true
Through the good times and the bad
Ya - I'll be standin' there by you
LOVE LABOUR not LOST
Perfect Ten
The morning Steven!!
Celebrating my birthday with Steve
Slogan of the year
June 10
I'd like to say to myself
HAPPY BIRTHDAY
And may I next year be happier, healthier, more spiritual and more self-fulfilled
Message!
Another lonely day, with no one here but me, oh
More loneliness than any man could bear
Rescue me before I fall into despair, oh
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Ill send an s.o.s. to the world
Ill send an s.o.s. to the world
I hope that someone gets my
I hope that someone gets my
I hope that someone gets my
Message in a bottle, yeah
Message in a bottle, yeah
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A year has passed since I wrote my note
But I should have known this right from the start
Only hope can keep me together
Love can mend your life but
Love can break your heart
Ill send an s.o.s. to the world
Ill send an s.o.s. to the world
I hope that someone gets my
I hope that someone gets my
I hope that someone gets my
Message in a bottle, yeah
Message in a bottle, yeah
Message in a bottle, yeah
Message in a bottle, yeah
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Walked out this morning, dont believe what I saw
Hundred billion bottles washed up on the shore
Seems Im not alone at being alone
Hundred billion castaways, looking for a home
Ill send an s.o.s. to the world
Ill send an s.o.s. to the world
I hope that someone gets my
I hope that someone gets my
I hope that someone gets my
Message in a bottle, yeah
Message in a bottle, yeah
Message in a bottle, yeah
Message in a bottle, yeah
Sending out at an s.o.s.
Sending out at an s.o.s.
Sending out at an s.o.s.
Sending out at an s.o.s.
Sending out at an s.o.s.
Sending out at an s.o.s...
A little push of confidence
Just before I leave the office
Can't imagin myself
The morning prayer
Dear Lord,
I am grateful to Thee
for giving me a chance to wake up to a new morning
for giving me a heart longing to Thee
for giving me a family that loves and cares
for making me able to see, touch, and feel Your so many bounties upon me and around
Dear Lord,
I am thankful to Thee
for what you have given me
and what you have taken away
for teaching me lessons constantly
for reminding me of Your blessings
I thank Thee
for the pain and deprivation
for if it wasn't pain or deprivation
I wouldn't have sensed the blessings
Dear God
You are in my heart
I truely love Thee
I truely am grateful
Your earth is beautiful
and yet You promised me Heaven
Thank you for Your earth
and thank You for the promise
and thank You for making me able to thank Thee